WHADDUHP?!?!
Getting both tattoos done on march 9th!!!
Beginning of my Star Wars half sleeve annnnnnnd my first back piece!!
Ha, sums up my last relationship well
A foolish heart will call on you to toss your dreams away, then turn around and blame you for the way you went astray.
Oh.
I wish I had someone to vent to and just cry on their shoulder. My monsters are coming back and knowing on my brain. Always headaches, always physical pain. I hate to think that going back to old habits would help but thinking it relieved so much pain was enough to do it. I miss when I used to trust people and not wonder if everything is for real or just a sham. God I hate myself for thinking so poorly on evwrythig that makes me happy. But finding certain stuff can shatter a heart even if it is harmless or it will never happen. I hate myself… God damn it, I am so sorry.
I am not one of those who can easily hiide.
I wish I could get over all this jumble shit in my head,
Why can’t I ever be happy with anything.
Terrible thing to say but it is true, terrible way to think.
Negative
I am just a negative fucking person, I can’t ever just let something good happen to me, I always have to think the worst about everything. God fuck, I need something to get this shit off my mind. I hate the fact that I cannot just push things out of my mind forever.
Fuck you mind… FUCK YOU.
I am cold and just afraid of what is in the back of my head. There is a monster in the darkness and it goes bump every chance it gets.
I can’t fucking stand myself anymore.
What I got.
Cup of coffee.
A cig.
Company of the girl room mate. (Sadielicious)
Internet connection.
My last day off this week.
Wish I had my baby here.
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